Tagged: Mental Illness

Mortimer Field

Mortimer Field was an artist with peculiar talents. I befriended Mortimer while working at The Institute for the Mentally Deranged (this was during the 1970’s when “deranged” was considered an accurate diagnosis). Mortimer was a patient. Two years after I met him, he disappeared. Soon after, I began to collect the stories he told me (I kept meticulous notes) along with his artwork and journals. His work has often been described as disturbing. I offer this collection of notes and stories to my esteemed reader for you to judge for yourself.

Chapter One

This story is about the day Mortimer Field saw a woman crossing the street. Mortimer said there was  something annoying about the woman as if she possessed some insidious secret. She was heavy set. Her form seemed to be pulled forward by the ponderous swell of her stomach. Her face was like puckered dough. Her lips were like the flame of an acetylene torch and she wore large, gold frame sunglasses. She appeared to be in her late fifties. Her hair was like burnt roots sticking out from the edge of a pink bathing cap. She wore a fur coat that looked like automobile upholstery. A red-and-black muumuu radiated beneath the fur coat like an electric bulb.

She plowed across the street in a trance. Her brown hose slipped down over her heavy thighs. Mortimer became more and more agitated as he related his story. His voice squeaked with perturbation, “she looked at me,” he said, “suddenly she looked without pausing and without losing her heavy stride.” Mortimer wanted to scream. The woman was too familiar. He could see her eyes swimming behind the dark lenses in her glasses. They looked like eggs broken on a plate.

As he related the story he began to sweat profusely. He said seeing the woman made his skin tighten and his head ache as if his bony skull was about to break through the thin layer of flesh. He recognized the woman. He knew her. She was in the painting he’d just completed before leaving his studio for the street. She was the woman he imagined — she was solely his creation!

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“At first there was the hum of the machine: a constant buzz and yammering, voices in my head: TV news, commercials, and pleas for money.”

The psychiatrist was attentive. He spoke with the thunder of boom and bluster, “I understand you need help. Recent traumas have had a negative effect. But… I sense there is more. I believe you are fundamentally flawed. You are dealing with several different personalities, all residing in the same corpus.”

The screen went dark. On the other side of the wall a political rally was dividing the country. An Angel appeared: a flash of light too brief to be noticed. There were others, but they were as silent as shadows fading into the wall.

Dieter Rosenquist was sedated, recovering from a recent fall that split open his forehead. Modern science sealed the wound and put him on the path to recovery. He lay on his newly purchased, massive bed that rose up and lowered with the touch of a button. Dieter had his I-pad and I-phone to keep him company. The computers revealed the world through filters and fake news reports. Dieter was ninety-two, quickly approaching his Year of Ascension when he would receive his first pair of angel wings. He was ready. He had seen enough of the Twenty-First Century and the New World Order. Dieter already felt the flutter of wings as he settled into a virtual healing session with Godfather Ken, the spokesperson for Cthulhu on Earth.

Readers may remember Cthulhu as a character in H.P. Lovecraft novels from 100 years ago. Of course, time no longer has any significance. Time was declared irrelevant by the President of the Apprentice Nation. Who am I to judge… I’m just an obedient reporter working for the Cthulhu contingency of Alien Observers.

Dieter awoke with a jolt of electricity and immediately left his old body behind. He climbed into a golden chariot. The self-driving Behemoth took him to Sound-Stage Eleven, the lap of luxury, where he would encounter Terpsichord Renatta. Terpsichord was a mash-up, a mix of characters from Dieter’s past. Tonight she/he represented a fling in the hay and a love-gone-wrong. As ever, Renatta was stunning beyond belief, optimized with alluring filters. It was an explosive experience being in his/her close proximity. They were attending the inauguration of television’s most vaunted celebrity.

The party was just beginning. On the surface everything was orderly and precise. The event proceeded without a hitch, but something peculiar stirred in the depths. Tersichord was not allowed to use the bathroom of his choice. Dieter was bleeding profusely. The Orange Guard infiltrated local communities. Church leaders were seen taking bribes and kissing ass. Real news was banned. Pussy grabbing was all the rage.

The confusion began with a crash on the 405. It could have been a hit-and-run that resulted in a misstep, a terrible tumble. One moment Dieter was driving his car and the next instant he was sliding into oblivion. He skimmed the Event Horizon and fell through a Black Hole. He thought he saw the face of God: tentacles screaming out of the void… a momentary flash of orange hair in a comb-over.

The President tweeted about a new TV event, a Network Spectacular. The name of the show was, Smash, and the whole world was encouraged to attend. The Billionaires Club hosted the Virtual Extravaganza. Party favors were delivered by drones to every household in the country. Dieter received an AK47 signed by the President. Corporations provided chemically infused fast food, a feast of enormous proportions. Arenas and Pleasure-Domes were packed to overflowing. The event began with patriotic songs and a parade of unemployed workers from coal mines and   uranium fields. Crowds cheered as gladiators were forced to perform Herculean tasks. Consumer goods were praised. Russian roulette and other games-of-chance were promoted by celebrity shills. Nothing was too devious, crass, or outrageous. Television ratings soared. A war ravaged world watched in shock and awe.

The men and one woman at the Billionaire’s Club watched and laughed. Smash generated Trillions. Attention was focused on the violence perpetrated by the hordes attending the event. Everyone was fascinated. No one was complaining. the masses were subdued. Members of the Club laughed like hyenas ripping apart a corrupt carcass.

Cthulu also watched; enormous, bloated and vengeful, Cthulu rose up from the darkest depths, blotting out the sky, devouring the universe… all the while laughing, always laughing (the hum… constant buzz and yammering… a sound like the shredding of entrails).

The land of the dying sun was not far away. The white-gold disc glowed softly behind a curtain of mist. A woman lay on a hospital bed refusing to give-in to the doctor’s diagnosis: old, beyond years, but still beautiful… still ferocious… a face to be reckoned with… facing life and death. Everyone else faded away like gauze, ghosts in the fog. Nothing mattered anymore. Cthulu and the others receded into the background. The Angel lingered briefly and vanished. Virtual Realities evaporated, as insubstantial as tissue. She wondered if she was crazy… and why nothing made sense. Commercials still intruded: TV voices hammered, but no longer threatened. The beasts lost their teeth. Machine-men, doctors and nurses, hovered around the patient like sentinels… prophesying death. But, she smiled, happy to be done with the overwrought world of men… Glad to be in the land of the dying sun.

 

Balbek Made It Happen

Jeff Sumak was angry.  The economy was bad, he was laid off from his lucrative management position and forced to work part time.  His girlfriend left him for another man.  His condo needed repairs he couldn’t afford.  It was all the fault of big government – too many bureaucrats with their fingers in the pie.  Government was a thief – stealing from his pockets to pay for healthcare,  welfare – roads, schools – it was all a boondoggle as far as Jeff was concerned.   Newly elected Vern Balbek promised salvation from the problems facing the nation.   Jeff was encouraged by this new patriot with a plan for real change.   The first major change had nothing to do with Jeff’s concerns – babies were given voting privileges (allowed to vote under the guidance and authority of knowledgeable parents).  The new law was aimed at supporting the family unit and banning all abortion.  Balbek stated, “New life is God given and must be protected at all cost – even at the expense of the expendable mother.”  The new laws  promoted the status of men and Jeff  thought that was very good common sense.

Jeff realized he always deserved more respect.  People needed to follow his suggestions because he was convinced he was more intelligent.  Women should be more attentive and subordinate.  After all,  Jeff loved to bang women (that was his only pleasure in life) so why shouldn’t they be more accommodating?  Balbek made it happen.  Jeff worshiped Balbek and the changes he promoted.   Balbek gave a weekly sermon on national TV.  It became the highest grossing program in the nation.  Balbek opened Step-up camps for orphans and “poor” children so they could learn proper etiquette and good working ethics.  Step-up led to Helping Hands to put the children and the nation’s unemployed back to work … in factories and mines … in kitchens and bathrooms as servants to their “Betters.”  Jeff was happy.  The economy boomed, stimulated by low-cost labor. Jeff  joined the The Guard.  He was paid well to enforce laws that protected corporate entities from unruly masses and worker dissent.  He was respected and well armed – he didn’t have to press too hard for women to grant him sexual favors.

The stock market soared when Balbek declared “Peace in the East.”  Of course the peace had to be reinforced with newly conscripted troops made up of youth from the national Step-up camps.   Another cadre of troops came from The Guard to manage the unruly youth.  Jeff Sumac was drafted.  He was an officer commanding a forsaken camp in a mud hole on a mountain overpass.  His life quickly turned to crap.  His troops were ill equipped.  Jeff’s requests for better weapons and basic necessities were never answered.  He saw teenagers ripped apart by artillery and bombs.  Every day was a nightmare of devastation.  Jeff complained to higher ups.  After several months sending emails,  he received an answer – he was taken to headquarters.  Jeff was put in a room, in solitary confinement and left to die.  He was no longer of any use to Balbek.   In his cell, Jeff began to suspect that Balbek was an invader,  an alien sent to dismantle order and sanity – sent as an advance guard before the main invasion.

Balbek frowned.  He peered through a one-way glass to inspect Jeff Sumak.  The man was obviously disassembling.   Jeff had been under Dr. Balbek’s care for more than a year.  There was no improvement.  Balbek knew Jeff suffered from disassociated personality disorder.  He suspected his patient harbored multiple personalities.   In fact, he knew Jeff believed himself to be Balbek, a powerful world leader, a megalomaniac, and an alien invader … now, Jeff believed himself to be a psychiatrist – Dr. Balbek.  The real Jeff Sumak never existed.